Weird NIght

John flew to Houston this evening.  We were supposed to be going too, so we could pick up our permanent visas.  A glitch was found at the last minute that will slow our visas down once again.  We decicided it would be better to cancel our tickets, and just John go up to attend the company annual budget meeting.  He will be in the Houston for 8 days. 

I have to admit I was bummed.  I had plans of all the things I wanted to buy now that we have been here for 2 weeks that I see we need/want.  I sent John with a list, so we will get those things.  Problem solved.  We practiced driving to the mall which has a great food court with over 40 restaurants and 28 screen movie theater.  Problem of entertainment taken care of.  Gareth is back in school on Monday, so we will be our normal routine.  I have Portuguese lessons 3 times next week, so that will keep me busy.  I feel safe in our apartment, and in my ability to function here without John.  I am sitting on the deck as I type looking at the beatiful stars, listening to the waves, and feeling the ocean breeze on my face. 

My world should be fine and dandy.  There is no ratioanl reason that it should not be.  But in reality I feel off center.  In the fall after Gareth went to bed, I would watch one of my recorded shows to fill this time at night.  Down here we do not have a TV.  The apartment is feeling empty.  I miss John.