Not the Best Day

This is one of those days that I am glad is over. Gareth had a soccer game today. They lost the first game. Gareth pouted through the second.

When we came home from dinner we found that Rascal our cat if 18 years has died. It is very sad but not unexpected. It is one if those problems that usually John would deal with. Instead I had to handle the logistics on a Saturday night.

I feel like I am stuck in between 2 places while straddle a deep divide. I love our life here in Oklahoma. I am having to work really hard to find a buyer for my business. I am also doing the packing and cleaning out for the move. Some of my closest friends here are pulling away which makes me feel more lonely.

The other place is our new home of Brazil. John is down there experiencing all the good, bad,and ugly. While I am here getting little tidbits of information about it. I feel like that is where I would like to be, but I am not being allowed to step across the divide.

I feel lost and alone with the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am not usually a person that gets depressed, but that is what I am feeling.

I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Adjusting

John has been in Brazil for 3 days getting a whirlwind tour of the company's bases. Gareth and I are establishing our routine without John.

I have to admit Gareth is adjusting in an interesting manner. In some ways he is stepping up and trying to fill his dad's shoes. He is even using phrases like "Let me get that for you" like his dad does. It makes me smile to see a glimpse of the man my little boy will be some day On the opposite side. I find him acting more immature in areas. Last night he wanted a pillow he used to like for security that he hasn't slept with in a long time. I just keep giving him extra love and attention, and I think this will all balance out.

I find myself also having a little trouble adjusting. The first day I cleaned and scrubbed getting ready for the move. The last couple of days I have been more at a loss of what to do with myself now that there is less to do by one person. I also find myself holding my phone at all times. The communication between us is iffy depending on when he has access to wifi. I just don't want to miss an opportunity to talk or see pictures of our new home.

He has landed

Just got word that hubby is in Salvador. I am sooo excited for him and for us. I was asking so many questions John had trouble keeping up. I want to know all about our soon to be new home. Thank goodness for skype. John was able to show us what it looked like outside his hotel, very modern with many skyscrapers. His main description was that there were alot of palm trees. This will be good for us.

The Beginning

My mother tells every time we move to a new location that I should write down what happens.  In the past I have just blown this thought off.  With the advancements in access to technology, I thought I would give this a try with our new move. 

Today I thought would be a great day to begin a blog, as this is the first day that a Bullard will be in our new home city, Salvador, Brazil.  John flew out last night, and should be roaming through customs, and getting taxis, and all of the fun and frustrating stuff that goes along with being in a city your have never been to.  The rest of the Bullard are here at home waiting to hear that he made it. 

As we keep waiting to hear if hubby in Brazil, I can tell you the things I do know.  1)This blog will be full of tons of grammer and spelling mistakes.  I will do my best, but sometimes I am just more interested in telling the story than those details.  2)I will blog when I can.  When I am living the moment, it is not always easy to step back and write about it.  3)Moving to a new city with my "boys" will be a wonderful adventure.  I know there will be some not so fun things, and there will be home sickness.  I hope we are able to always find the enjoyment once the frustration dies down.

Here is to the next install of the Bullard Family Adventure - Salvador, Brazil