Not the Best Day

This is one of those days that I am glad is over. Gareth had a soccer game today. They lost the first game. Gareth pouted through the second.

When we came home from dinner we found that Rascal our cat if 18 years has died. It is very sad but not unexpected. It is one if those problems that usually John would deal with. Instead I had to handle the logistics on a Saturday night.

I feel like I am stuck in between 2 places while straddle a deep divide. I love our life here in Oklahoma. I am having to work really hard to find a buyer for my business. I am also doing the packing and cleaning out for the move. Some of my closest friends here are pulling away which makes me feel more lonely.

The other place is our new home of Brazil. John is down there experiencing all the good, bad,and ugly. While I am here getting little tidbits of information about it. I feel like that is where I would like to be, but I am not being allowed to step across the divide.

I feel lost and alone with the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am not usually a person that gets depressed, but that is what I am feeling.

I hope tomorrow is a better day.